GUESS WHAT MY BIRTHDAY IS ON FRIDAY!!!!!!!!! Yipeeeeeeeeeee

my parents are coming to visit on thursday and then my friends from school are planning a surprise something! I'm so excited i've never had a surprise before. Then i'm coming home the weekend of the 11th to celebrate with my family and i christina is coming to redlands on the 18th.

I LOVE FEBRUARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 I'M GOING TO BE 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!   AHHHHHHHH!

I miss the old days, when things used to be so easy! I feel like sometimes I can never be good enough and someone is always getting upset at me because i'm not spending enough time with them or that i'm not as perfect as i should be. I don't know what to do!

Like people tell me that I rely on people to much for my happiness, so i really have been working on that to be a better and stronger person. And i think i've made a lot of progress.

Right now i know my friends are just frustrated because they think that by me hanging out with someone that i am changing but i really don't think i am. Then when i come back and hang out with them it's like they have their own little world and  i don't fit into it. Lindsey thinks that the problem is that i am too nice and have too many friends, but its not likei'm going to be mean.

I know that things would be different if we didn't all live together and its just super hard. Cuz i love everyone but i can't do anything about always doing things to please people and then make myself happy too. errrrr

Any suggestions?

Well lets just say that this weekend has been quite eventful!

Friday night i go to the movies with some friends and after we drive back to the dorm. What do we see when we pull into the parking lot you ask? Well of course the dorm is on fire what else would you suspect from Merriam Hall!!

So its turns out that some idiot put a carton of eggs in the microwave in our kitchen for 30 min. The whole kitchen basically is chargrilled and nothing is left. Our lobby has severe smoke damage and we can't go in there for 2 weeks.

So how did i spend my friday night? Well i stood in the parking lot with my hall for 2 hours untill 230 in the morning when they told us to see if we could find a friend to stay with. Then they let us have 5 minutes where we ran in and grabbed some essentials and then 4 of us drove to riverside where one of my friends live. Then we went shopping because they wouldn't let us back in the dorm till 6 the next night. Isn't that the best story you have ever heard?!!!

Anywho i'm gettin excited about my bday. I'll be coming home on the 11th if any of you will be in town i'd love to see you!

Hey

I'm finally back at school, it was great seeing everyone, fun times with all the girls and shopping trips with christina.

It's pretty quiet here as everyone gets back and we will start classes on Tuesday so that leaves a fun day tomorrow. It's so cold tho because it's raining buckets and buckets of rain. My campus is getting really wet and there are parts that are flooding cuz they aren't used to that rain. Ok well i need to go help a friend move back in.

Thanks for all the good times this break and being cheery for me when i needed that, it really helped. I love all of you!!!!